You don't have a Prophet. You don't have any honor. You literally named your account after sexual innuendo and a murderer. If you want to overcome your carnal desires and become a better man, you have to embrace the codified way of life exemplified by those who have renounced this world. What are you living for? You really believe that the ineffable entity that crafted everything from nothing, and has clearly always existed, is dumb, or deaf, or unknowing? You believe it a spontaneous extension of nature? Absurd. The creator is unlike the creation. The creator has always existed, and will always exist. He is unfathomable. Applying the scientific method to phenomena which make claims (e.g. Jesus did miracles) intimately related to another phenomenon which is obviously outside the scope of science (the creation of the universe which violates thermodynamics and basic logic), is self-deciet.