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I understand. It must be painful to see a family member self destruct in slow motion like that. Maybe in time she will realize what she has done. It will be too little too late, but repentance is everything if she wants Gods forgiveness.
It was a life time of emotional and physical pain and it didn't actually start when she was 15, in fact, that's when things got better as she was more interested in getting high. Both my older brother and sister got into drugs and our grandparents who raised us seemed oblivious. They were oblivious when my older siblings constantly beat me down and never once punished them for it.
When I got older I started fighting back and they would join in to beat me or my grandparents started the beating and my brother or sister would join in. The last time it happened and I fought back successfully my sister ran off and called the cops. I was so happy when the policeman came and took me to jail. I was 14. They kept me in jail right through my 15th birthday. I think I was in jail for over a month or so and meanwhile there were court hearings, motions, etc. by social workers to get me out of jail. They finally agreed on a compromise and I was sent to Nebraska Center for Children and Youth. When I came home a year later my Grandparents were terrified to lay a hand on me but my brother and sister tried to start it up again and once more they failed. I refused to be beat down and there was nothing anyone could do so they packed me off to a boarding school.
Damn, sorry to hear that. I suppose the best thing for you is to just not look back. Family is supposed to be better than that.
For a primer on what this sort of dysfunctional family is like I strongly suggest going on youtube and looking up family scapegoating.
You grow up in a world where suddenly, at a very young age you are deemed the bad guy because you say exactly what you are thinking as an innocent child. Then you gradually take on the role of family scapegoat where every problem becomes your fault. Nothing you can do will make them happy and even doing well gets you in more trouble while the others can literally get away with everything next to murder you are the evil one if you resist and fight back.
It's a crazy world and yes, when a person finally wakes up and walks away, it's like walking out from a grim dark world of constant anxiety to fresh air and sunshine. You never want to go back. And if you do get lonely and go back, it all starts up again and you just leave, thinking, 'why was I so stupid, what did I expect?'.
Of course, I am speaking of myself. Early on, working on construction crews I saw a bit of it but nothing like at home and I was already prepped to know what I was seeing and how to stand up for myself. Normal people don't do that sort of stuff within a family.
Of course, I realize I'll never be calm cool and collected like people that didn't grow up in that environment but at least I know what should be normal.
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