I understand a lotnof your concerns and misgivings. Without expounding on a huge bible study on you, I'll just simplify it by saying this:. If you study the Bible from cover to cover, you quickly discover that although God chose the Jews to be the vehicle.of His message, He did so not because they're some greater race, but because they were a deeply flawed and inherently evil people who ultimately killed and rejected their own Messiah. Afterwards, God as Jesus and John the Baptist said, the Lord is done with your shit and explained that the worship of Him never had anything to do with being a Jew, or being circumcised, or followed temple traditions. It's always been about faith. If I might challenge you, please try rereading John. Reread it, and think of one thing; of Jesus Christ really was a jew himself, and not the physical incarnation of God, why would he spend his entire time telling them in particular why they're so evil and that they will never inherit the kingdom of God? Why are the majority of his miracles done for gentiles? God always wanted your heart. He doesn't care who you are. That's the true message of the gospel. God bless, mate