Yeah I have to go the mortgage route but I know most get it done in a month or two. Its been 3, I'm just getting frustrated with them, I get the reasons I just dislike all the inefficiency of it.
Yet another show. Do you have one next week? If so maybe I can see that one depending on how things play out.
You have an interesting take on romantic relationships I'll give you that. Almost the opposite of my take for as long as I can remember. I met my wife when I was 11 years old decided I would marry her that day, and 7 years later I did. Its been almost 13 years and we are better off than we have ever been. She puts up with all of my shit. She even puts up with me excitedly talking about seeing your state without her and the kids for a few days while she is pregnant. My point of view is I will never let her go and she has the same dedication too me. I can't imagine a mindset that would allow me to not commit to her. Different strokes I suppose.
Why is it you won't know until after she is gone? I think of love more like a verb and a noun its not just something that happens its something you choose and do. Perhaps thats just me though.
I suppose if a women actively chooses not to have children then it would be a good indicator she doesn't like crowds.
Yeah, we have a private function the following weekend. Which means I can't really invite anyone to that.
And, you only truly know if you loved something after it's gone. At least that's my observation. When your heart's ground into the dirty under the heel of a boot - then you know you love her. When there's that hole in your heart that just rips your life to shreds, that's when you know it was love.
Prior to that, it could just be infatuation or in lust! I've been in lust with lots of people. I've only been in love with a few. Hell, I've shagged all sorts of chicks that I didn't even really like. They were just cute and there.
Also, some banks are better than other banks. I much, much prefer credit unions. I'm not just a customer, I'm a member! I don't have a "checking" account. I have a "share" account. I own a share of the credit union!
Damned socialist, is what I am!
I kinda am, too. Not in the sense that many use it, but I like fire departments, roads, social safety nets, and whatnot. I like to be able to get places, not have the forest burn down, and not have to worry about people trying to steal my stuff!
Ah well...
Well having been in a unique situation where I lost something I did love. It still pains me today. I can say I love my wife more than anything. I gave up a piece of myself for it. I felt that whole under the boot thing and it was not pleasant I fought hard and almost lost everything. I'd tell you the story in person but I will never share that one on the Internet.
I would honestly prefer to have gone through a credit union I think they are better. but I am not eligible to be a member at the moment.
You want to know a big secret I will tell you. I was a socialist. Honestly I was a communist. I have since seen the error of those ways. Socialism I see the benefit and in the modern world some form of it is needed.
I see the need for people to take care of people outside of the currency system. My solution to that is god. and the values given by that. If I had to create a system for it it would probably at this point be a universal basic income but I don't think thats the best system that could exist. I think the market could probably eventually produce a better one. Perhaps I am just religious in my beliefs in a god and the market I'll accept that is possible but I don't see anyone else coming up with a better system for morality than that.
Try as I might, I can't believe in a deity. I've tried. I just can't.
And, as for love... Yeah, remember how it felt when you lost it? Remember how before that you didn't feel nearly the same - else you'd have spent even more time with them, doted on them more, paid attention more, snapped fewer times, etc...
It's only afterwards that (for me at least) love becomes certain.
And what a glorious feeling it is. Ah... It stokes the creativity. It gives you passion and drive. You feel the whole spectrum of emotions. You may even think it's over and you're going to die.
How vibrant and awesome that truly is.
It makes me write bad poetry, travel the country with a pumpkin, play music unlike any I've played before, dance with strangers until dawn, and get really intoxicated!
LOL
By the way, the first of the articles is up on the site.
It's Shake, Rattle and Roll!
I'm particularly happy with the results of the work. The site doesn't look that bad and actually has all the functionality I wanted. Well, I still have to deal with ads - but I really don't fucking feel like dealing with Google tonight. Fuck...
It took me like an hour to get Google to tell me the damned YouTube data API key. (To save on speed, I use special caching for the YouTube videos.) I was okay with that - that's just bad usability on their part.
What pissed me off was that it took like another hour to get my sitemap.xml into their system. Seriously? You're a search engine. Finding things is what you do! It's even called "SITEMAP.XML!!!" Find it! That's exactly what a search engine should do! But, no... No... It was a bunch of buttons and hidden somewhere that I'd never have expected to find it, nested several layers deep and a pain in the ass.
Go figure?
So, I'm not really ready to deal with Google tonight. (I started this last week - but the project has been in the works for a couple of months now.)
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