Well I don't think everyone can believe nor should they! I'm not one of those guys that believes if you don't believe you go to a hell. Long complicated storey.
As for remembering the pain of love, I do it hurts every day. I'm not sure it will ever stop. Its caused some problems in my marriage. I have fought hard against it. Over and Over and Over. A part of me died. I won't deny that. I almost did die. I would have chosen death if it had been an option.
Lol google is a pain, been living with that for 10+ years. They will make your life difficult any way they can. Anyway. I am off to bed. I have thought about some things tonight that bring quite a bit of pain. You have a good night Dr. Buddha. I wish you all the best.
Enjoy your rest!
Doctor's orders. ;-)
okay fine I'll go to bed.
I should probably do that. However I am contemplating. So it will probably be a few hours before I actually sleep. Which really just means I am beating myself up if I had to be honest. This is something I need to do in order to get better. Its a sacred ritual. This job I have its a lot of money and its also a lot of me not being present for my kids. where is the line drawn. NO one knows. Its impossible to know. I often contemplate what it would be like it I was not around. I don't realistically consider these ideas. I Just wonder. I think many many things and most of them result in me thinking my current situation is the best for everyone. Even so. I am not smart enough or wise enough to raise these kids. Maybe someday I will figure it out.
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