My most sincere condolences on your loss. Be gentle with yourself and your wife...God is with you in your time of grief and loss. My soul is deprived of peace, I have forgotten what happiness is; I tell myself my future is lost, all that I hoped for from the Lord. But I will call this to mind, as my reason to have hope: The favors of the Lord are not exhausted, his mercies are not spent; They are renewed each morning, so great is his faithfulness. My portion is the Lord, says my soul; therefore I will hope in him. -- Lamentations 3: 17-18, 21-24