I was called BY NAME on TV. REALLY. Random thing, SAME program. More I Can't say. For me? I have no idea. Not even sure (penance) if God even likes me. I just have a strange comfort. A serene feeling (never before in life) that whatever happens, it will be alright, as it should be, and that's good enough for me. Even if I get clobbered (all signs point to yes). I want goodness to win, I don NOT want to be evil, if I am (judgment), I want to be destroyed (ASAP) with a measure of mercy (no pain, i HATE pain and suffering, had PLENTY). No expense, no mess, as little inconvenience as a nobody can manage in leaving mortal existence. I'm hoping for more DIRECT (and obvious) leadership and guidance from God. Perhaps he doesn't realize I've been damaged along the way? My communication circuits are perhaps inoperable or something. OR perhaps, I'm just a nobody and my fate was my own choosing based on my own ignorance and stupidity, and so be it. Doesn't matter (coming events). For the first time in my life, I feel like it's all (my life experiences) making some sense. God be with you (if he wants). God help you at least. Hopefully he communicates with you in a more literal/obvious way, than with myself.