I'm an alcoholic, so I know how you feel. I've been drinking the past. It's not bad, yet, but I know where this path goes. I was doing well, but I didnt go to as many meetings as I should've, and didn't call my sponsor, though I should've. I was moving out of the sober house, and into my own place, and I put that move over my program. Now I can feel the darkness enveloping my again. I should've stayed humbling myself, and not let my own stupid desires run the show. When have I ever had a plan that went the way I wanted? Why do I keep on getting mad that the world isn't the way I think it should be? I'm fucking up, but if I just do the right thing, I'll get back on the path. Let me know if you ever want to talk.