Vanity vs humility..
What do you mean?
Inside you are two wolves. One is humble and doesnt make a show of himself, the other is vain and has to be assured that his place in the world is important to others. Which wolf do you feed?
I think I need both wolves to pull the sled.
I get a lot of energy to keep going by putting my reputation on the line, and letting myself fail publicly if I make mistakes, are being too lazy, or aren't smart as I thought. On the other hand, I think that I need to constantly question whether I'm wrong and listen to others opinions, even if they are telling me how much I suck.
What's the alternative? Keep quiet and build my project silently, and when I run into difficulty there would be no consequences to quitting? I'm afraid I might take the easy path, and let the inner bitch win.
Also, I'm old enough now that if I make a fool out of myself by displaying my thoughts and actions, whether people want it or not, I don't really care.
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