I'm hesitant to point in any direction as if it will naturally lay out a path to follow, and there's so much information, so many first hand sources that may be beneficial to look into, that it's difficult for people to absorb it all, let alone draw abstract connections spanning the entire thing and make conclusions from that. Sometimes these cultists are explicit about things, but often they write in ways to conceal what they truly mean, or they refer to things that only insiders know, and it's difficult to deduce those things without being an insider too. You can probably see the explicit elements of what I'm talking about coming together in various places, in the public sphere, like in entertainment, but I wouldn't expect most people to quite understand the context of it all and how it relates to the bigger picture or connects together. People wouldn't naturally assume Star Wars has anything to do with Kabbalah, but it is partly based of it and George Lucas is a Freemason. He probably hated Walt Disney, but he evidently didn't hate the Jews that took over Disney- so that's one mystery solved. At least having read this perspective or these ideas, it's now something you can consider, & look back on, in whatever research you take up. You can decide whether I'm on the right track or if it's just bullshit, where as other people may research all these things and the associations will never twig, so they are never even up for consideration. >but I haven't found a source for info that I felt confidence in. Majority of the easily found material I know isn't the truth Same, I just try to take in perspectives from multiple angles, take bits and pieces from all sorts of people, look at the first-hand sources, remain open minded and then try to come to my own conclusions by making comparisons/ connections. Nobody else ties it all up in a neat bow for me to adopt, but I'm kind of weird, it's an odd thing to fixate on and research rather than engineering or science, I guess it was my upbringing. Where as some people will just say "They worship Satan!" Well, that may be true, but that's an outsider's bias/ perspective really. I wanted to know exactly what motivated them and what defines their worldview. Mainly because I was curious and it's a mystery that nobody had ever gave me a completely satisfying answer for, but also- you can only have victory over your adversary when you know them, and you know yourself, without that, you're just a leaf in a maelstrom. One thing naturally leads to another and before you know it, you've got a whole set of ideas.