Im guessing absolute shock trauma. Seeing her husbands brains probably skipped past everything else to a point of raw, emotionless get me the fuck outta here flight mode...
She climbed on the trunk to retrieve a piece of his skull. It was definitely shock.
Shock. I know when something completely insane happens around me, I get weirdly, almost overly calm until I've had some quiet time to think about it. I always lose it long after whatever happened happened. I'm sure she got no downtime for quite a while to process any of it.
This is the correct answer. Some people go full Spock under severe, transitory psychological stress like death and gore.
Usually that's tied to an abusive childhood where rigorous emotional control in high stress situations was necessary to stay alive.
I didn't realize that. Makes perfect sense in my case. I can't imagine Jackie's childhood was safe either.
This is me. Then twenty years later I start crying. Like clockwork.
You can heal from that trauma. Accepting that your response was reasonable and necessary at the time helps. Much the way that if you're born in France, you should speak French. It also helps to acknowledge that it's now maladaptive and that it's important to change the behavior to better fit your new environment, much the way you'd learn English if you moved to America instead of babbling at everyone in French.
It also helps to consciously acknowledge that changing that behaviour will frighten you because you adopted it as a survival behavior. It's ok to be nervous about changing it, so long as you take active steps to do so now that it's maladaptive instead of beneficial. Allowing yourself to experience emotion when stressed is no longer dangerous, and is now beneficial as it will allow you to bond with your loved ones rather than holding everyone at arm's length.
However she did it, bless her heart for showing strength
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