My father died in April and I did something similar to what said but on my family farm. I did some shooting to relieve internal anger at targets and spent the night sitting on a blanket in the field and eventually falling asleep and looking up at the stars. I also listened to various podcasts to distract my mind. I don't think the grief ever goes away but the intensity of it simmers slowly. My condolences, if you have lucid dreams think positive things about him before you eventually fall asleep. He might come visit you and you can say goodbye. This happened to me and it was like a weight off of my shoulders.
My father died in April and I did something similar to what /u/StabEm said but on my family farm. I did some shooting to relieve internal anger at targets and spent the night sitting on a blanket in the field and eventually falling asleep and looking up at the stars. I also listened to various podcasts to distract my mind. I don't think the grief ever goes away but the intensity of it simmers slowly. My condolences, if you have lucid dreams think positive things about him before you eventually fall asleep. He might come visit you and you can say goodbye. This happened to me and it was like a weight off of my shoulders.
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