The white pill, for me, is in the serenity that comes with knowing Christ. I grew up an edgy atheist, but then slowly learned more and more about how the world really works, and (((who))) is responsible for most of the worst of it. I came to realize how consistently these corrupted aspects of society rail against Christianity and seem to give all other religions a pass. That started the ball rolling. Now, having faith, the world may infuriate and disgust me most of the time, but I can always take a step back and realize that God wins in the end, and this is all basically just a temporary messed up dream. I'm basically immune to anxiety and fear these days. Mostly because I no longer feel the need to try to control outcomes. Just have to trust God and show up as the guy I think he wants me to be.