You are an absolutely an amazing parent! Don't let the "health officials" convince you otherwise. I was and still am in that same boat with you. My son did get the first doses of poison. I am sick inside over it. I haven't ever gone back for anymore since his early ones. He was in private school all through out elementary school and since this past year, for middle school, my husband and I decided to let him go to the public school. In order to enroll him, I must submit his immunization records. I boldly and privately declined. I had to go down to the city, in person to the social services office and in person fill out religious exemption forms so that my son could enroll in public school. They make it difficult to do. But that is what I did.