I feel you. To me, the problem is a lack of purpoe. Build a homestead. Start to grow your own food and build solid community of strong people (not babylonian cucks like most of us are used to) And if you are, stop watching porn. It drains your energy and makes you a gay cuck who can only get off to watching other guys fuck some girl. Life is difficult. It is even more difficult when you live in broken societies/cities, like most people do. Pray. There is a greater purpose to life, far beyond just living to die. Good luck my friend.