because you and many others, especially with similar opinions and views, aren't made for this world. society is currently designed to coddle the laziest, most unimpressive ppl while dis-incentivizing the exact things a society needs to thrive; courage, independence, logic/rationale, health, real education, family unit, close knit community/philia, etc. first step is recognizing it, which you've done. you're not going to change the world on your own, this was the source of my frustration. you can only control yourself, so focus on that. find like minded ppl, or at least not covidians, and outlets/hobbies that improves yourself and takes focus off the shit out of your control. to watch the world crumble and leaders blatantly lie to our faces is very depressing. we here understand very much.