In my teens and 20's I was the same. It was really weird to experience for me but around when I turned 30-32 I found that the way people treated me changed in a way that wasn't tied to any of the "self improvement" I had been working on for at least 10 years prior. However I never really took off because I kept getting unmotivated because of how people treated me. Then around my early thirties it was like a switch flipped in the span of a couple years and I was able to find purpose. Mostly in my career but nonetheless having real responsibilities with teams and management in the workplace and finally feeling like I was making a difference. I suddenly had more motivation to build something. The momentum has been building ever since. I definitely feel the change in perception came first from others and I fed on it. Suddenly I cared to dress professionally, take my health seriously, learn how to be better in many ways with new skills I never cared for previously or thought were for faggots. But the more I tried the more people responded. I'm not going to lie, timing and luck is a big part but I'm certain that even with less i wouldn't care anymore. I've found a purpose to my life where I don't care about possessions. As long as I can work I know I can create value and something to live off. I see other people more as children, recognizing their ignorance and frankly putty them when they do shitty things to me. They don't get it because they're like children whom I have to entertain. Professionally, as long as they do the job the rest is on a personal level and I just compartmentalize. You'll be alright just keep building yourself up as a person. Read old books, and just soak up as much as you can. Fuck everyone else. It's mostly just crabs in a bucket out there and you need to learn to see the bigger picture. It's only your current value system that's dragging you down so learn to value different things. It's all really a choice you have, follow along or be fulfilled.