The wife part is brutal. I couldn't imagine being single at this point. My wife has gone through health scares and I've threatened her if she thinks she can kick the bucket already. Ain't got much advice there. Mine was literally God sending me on an insane life detour to find her. She's not poals perfect woman, but she knows what's right and tries her hardest. Not to be a dick to all women, but they are easily swayed. When we first got married, she was the most vanilla mega church esque girl. Now she makes racist jokes and shares Hitler memes. Play the long game my friend. I'm rooting for ya. We're all in this together.