It sounds to me like you have an interior monologue. You have a Voice, inside of your own head, narrating, and occasionally, telling you what to do. Do you think that this is actually you own voice? If so, why would you ever feel the need to narrate your own life? Schizophrenics and Schizoid type personalities are often known to have voices, or internal narrators, that they can hear inside of their own head. They are considered insane because they have more than one voice inside of their own head, Have you considered why one voice, inside your own head, is the magic number for sanity? Having two, or three, or five voices inside of your head would make you insane. But one, one voice, makes you a perfectly responsible and sane adult human. Cuz why? I don't actually think that Voice inside your head, that Voice that is your internal Narrator, is actually you at all. Has it ever had your own interest at it's heart? Or has it just filled you with self-doubt and misery? Call me crazy, call me a faggot, call me anything you want to. I don't think that Voice inside your head is actually you at all. I think it is something else entirely, and I think it is dangerous.