I've done everything under the sun. Drugs that dont even have names. I have drank and smoked and snorted things most people can't pronounce. I have been through withdrawal and I have been through pain and loss. And I dont remember any of the weeks it took for whichever thing it was beyond a vague "yeah it kinda sucked". I have been sober for years by choice. The best thing for quitting is saying no and keeping that promise to yourself. The pride and confidence it gives helps you the next day. I started with nothing and now I own 2 businesses and I can take care of my momma. So yeah I would say so. Alcohol and drugs didn't destroy my life. I did with poor choices. Stopping alcohol and drugs didn't improve my life. It was a byproduct of making better choices.
Make better choices.
Sounds like you did the best thing for you and your family, and that's pretty awesome.
That being said, I'm not really keen on this whole "existence" thing. Its just something I'd rather not be complicit in.
It can't get better if you don't participate.
It really isn't about it getting better.
It isn't bad. I'm not poor, I'm not unhealthy, I'm not retarded or bad looking.
It is just that I, like every human in existence, all the people that I know, or have ever known, inflict pain on those around me.
I don't mean to, I don't want to, but you will inevitably bring misery onto someone else's life,
I do not want to do that. I know that the people that I love the most, I have also hurt the most.
And I know that it is not just me,
We are all flawed because God or Science or whatever Creation you want to go with made us, just the way we are.
And I am not happy with the way that I am.
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