20, flunking out of college, parents cut me off (paying for housing and food, probably insurance and I had the old family car in my name). It's December, in Bozeman, MT... I have no money, no place to sleep, no food, friends who got tired of me couch surfing after a couple weeks. Suicidal, was using/abusing a handful of drugs (coming off that shit cold turkey sucked) ~ you average entitled brat.
That was my bottom. It sucked. I learned Valuable lessons... like, I'm resourceful. I figured out how to get free food (college town, kids Always have unused cafeteria passes), where/when to sleep (college student lounges during the day, awake all night), stay clean (college gym... only needed the ID to get into the gym, not the locker rooms). After a few months of having NO fucking clue... I mean, what 20y/o does anyway? And all I'd ever been allowed to know was school. Anyway, ~3 months of that shit was enough. Had a non-local friend offer to help me out with a place to stay if I did the cooking and cleaning. So awesome to have a bed of my own again, got job not long after and within a year I'd moved to DC (for a girl, dumb fucking thing to do) and was working as a Gov contractor pulling cable (I parleyed that into an IT career through the 90's and '00s). I now get to do my own thing, have for the past decade. Wouldn't be here if not for rock bottom.
Rock bottom was mostly a wakeup call. Sink or swim, get busy living or get busy dying. If you think you're there, or close enough, think about the fact that there's really only one way to go from rock bottom... up.
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