I feel like my brain is no longer capable of handling the shit it sees around it, be it clown world, family members signing their death wish taking the vaccine, the increased hostility. Everything, just seems so hopeless and beyond my brain's capability to comprehend. Even the woman im dating series is more of a projection of my brain's slow devolve into complete insanity. It wants to be normal, i want to be happy, i want to be able to just laugh at what i see, and yet my brain micro hones into complete despair and sadness, as if its entire regulation mechanism was destroyed from underneath it
What do you eat and drink? Tons of psychological and physical problems come from what you absorb. Moments of dispair are normal. Everything you cited in your comment, I feel the same. Clownworld, family, friends, etc. I got my own share of burden believe me. But we can change some things. Every day you can change something. Just a little thing at a time. I'm getting preachy now but see life as the best graphics video-game ever. We are on a speck of dust spinning in the cosmos and yet we talk now. Time is stupidly shrunken when you think about it. What's two thousand years geologically? Like a blink of an eye. Enjoy your time here even if you're down on your luck. You live and know many things. Think about all the great men and women that lived in the past and feel how close they are from you in reality. Feel your emotions. But most importantly, what are you eating? How are you built? Do you work out?
Not much of anything, meat, some carbs, water. Sometimes I drink a soda and stuff, but not more than once a month. I work out between 3-5 times a week usually
Quit the carbs for a while see if it helps. With the amount of workout you do, you shouldn't be depressed. How long are your sessions? Quit carbs and milk products to see if your biome needs a little change. Gut biome is your second brain.
Just wait a while and don't feel alone. I was thinking of an ex and the memory almost had me crying at work on Friday. I'm fine now and realize it was all me. Not her, not the world, just me fixating.
If the woman your dating sucks then jump ship, if it's bad now it can only get worse since the beginning is the most intensely joyful part and if that sucks or is setting off alarms then she's shit for you and just go on without her. Don't debase her if others ask just say you wanted someone that was this type of person/thinker instead and it just didn't work out.
You are either focusing on the wrong parts of life and need to change the way you live. Or you might have a hormonal imbalance which can be corrected through medications.
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