But how do i get rid of the overbearing sadness permeating my brain? It feels like a prison in my brain, destroying my willingness to get anything done. And then i feel perfectly fine hours later, heck by tomorrow ill feel like im normal again. And then 6 hours later, ill be back in a super destructive mood, as if happiness doesn't exist.
Again, I too am going through some personal issues that bring sadness. I sleep a little more. Then, I distract myself and feel better for awhile. Even this board, now chatting with you, lifts my spirits.
It'll be OK. If you ever need to chat, I'll be here for you. You can hit me up personally too.
I was on Voat before I came here and deleted myself, got paranoid, lol.
I'm back. I'm on Zello and Telegram too.
God Bless
man, i feel this bro. Im trying to get out to new place and try to be seld sufficient as much as I can. But I have stuggled with the same thoughts and mindset my whole life.
That girl isn't getting to you, is she?
No, its not based off any relationship, this has been an issue all the way from my childhood (didn't have the best parents). Relationship wise, any relationship that gets complex or serious enough devolves into the same negative feedback cycle, so this woman is not really much different from any placeholder woman who would net the same result. It takes a very strong personality to be able to date me, and there is only one person in existence that was able to control it well ... that person got hit by car in a tbone accident
You sound a lot like me and I have moderate highs and extreme lows. I quit drinking so not nearly as much but trust me I've been where you are and probably am right now. It goes away but comes back soon after. Depression is a bitch I know it feels like nobody else understands. Though reading what you've written so far you are black pilled and care alot about everything and I understand that as well. Though I have and gotten off fentanyl and I sometimes only fuck with cocaine, weed and kratom to self medicate because I don't trust hospitals or doctors. I probably shouldn't be alive not only from my lifestyle but other trials are tribulations where I swear angels have saved me more than once. I don't know where I'm going with this but ride the lightning and wait it out maybe we'll all get passed depression but will never know if dead and it hurts thinking about losing people's close to me so I don't want to be the one making others mourn or setting off other chains of events. Faith is stronger than my depression though. IDK man but you are not alone I've seen similar post on here as well. You'll be good but get suicide out of your mind all together and have Faith. I have no magic words if I did I'd tell myself. Good luck don't be a faggot and off yourself. Watch a good movie and stop thinking about all the marxist degeneracy and attacks on Western European Countries and values. Also self medicate responsibly if you do. We need you so does your crazy mom and everyone else. \o
JBP says you can't get rid of the pain, but you can make it meaningful.
He might not be "right", but I think he's on to something.
Sick soul. Suicide in is unnatural. A flame doesn't seek to put itself out nor does the dirt body seek to kill itself. You are right that your dirt body and its life is essentially worthless. The sadness isn't in your dirt body any more than sadness is in your smartphone. So pray to God and know that your soul isn't also worthless because if it was worthless he'd destroy you immediately. Worthless souls do not get to speak to the almighty creator of everything, at least not for long. It would be violent and quick, and I doubt you'd feel it. So next time you feel like this, pray and see how it goes. Spoiler: he loves you.
Honestly, see a doctor. They’ll help you get it figured out. I know someone similar to you and they’ve turned their life around after some really low lows and have everything going for them now and they are happy. Get over any stigma about talking to a doctor or taking meds and get your life that you want back. You have a purpose and need to be here for it.
I mean ... i dont know. I feel like my own self therapy isnt perfect but it definitely isn't the worst. On the other hand, i dont want dr shekelberg to fuck my life up even further
Not an excuse. There are tons of non-nose doctors out there. Find one or just move to Idaho where there are none. They’ll get you straightened out and feeling normal again.
I have been there too man. I got diagnosed with Bipolar 2 and went on latuda and lithium. I haven't really contemplated suicide since. Doctors get alot of shit, but they do alot of good things too. If you get the right diagnosis and right meds, they really can help.
Dealing with suicidal thoughts is brutal and wears on you for sure. Try to remember how final death is. None of us know what happens after, so if you off yourself, you may be giving up your one shot at life. You never really know what's around that next corner, and it could be something awesome.
Another thing that helped me was making sure my self care was in order. Have you taken a shower? Have you walked at all today? Have you eaten something healthy? Also talking to friends always helps me as well. You don't have to talk about suicide, but just shooting the shit with a friend can pull you away from your misery. Fuck, talk to me bro. I'll talk with you any time.
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