If there is a creator he doesnt care about you individually he cares about the whole population. He also had some major fuckups when it comes to stuff like satan. Best thing to do is disregard the theology and follow the plan. Be the best you can be, achieve your manifest destiny, try to avoid pitfalls like liberalism, drugs, and other jewish tricks. It is likely you will not find all the answers the universe holds but its possible one of your decendents might make some big strides, your white dna could give birth to a Copericus, a Newton, a Plato. There are great things we must accomplish and I dont know how many generations we have left before we are destroyed or massively set back by an asteroid/manmade disaster.