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It's been years since some of the most important people in my family passed away. For years, I was fine operated normally, nothing really seemed to register as a problem. But now all of a sudden, it feels like my brain is cracking from all sides. I'm overthinking things to an absurd degree, my brain is no longer able to process basic emotions properly, and all I do is get flashbacks to my past. For a long time I supressed my feelings with copious amounts of alcohol, and now that I'm fully sober, my brain is going absolutely insane. But why would my brain do this to me after so many years? Would it not make more sense it would have snapped way earlier on?

It's been years since some of the most important people in my family passed away. For years, I was fine operated normally, nothing really seemed to register as a problem. But now all of a sudden, it feels like my brain is cracking from all sides. I'm overthinking things to an absurd degree, my brain is no longer able to process basic emotions properly, and all I do is get flashbacks to my past. For a long time I supressed my feelings with copious amounts of alcohol, and now that I'm fully sober, my brain is going absolutely insane. But why would my brain do this to me after so many years? Would it not make more sense it would have snapped way earlier on?

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[–] • 1 pt (edited )

I dunno I lost my job slightly before the 2020 election. For Covid reasons. I watched them rig the election. I was stuck in a property I intended to renovate before renting out.

We met with a designer who said it would cost $200k. The max amount we could expect the value to rise was 100k. So I decided to do the bathrooms, sliding doors, lowered ceilings and closets myself to lower the burden.

I literally figured ie a sliding door would take a week. If I had full working days like any man normally would in their own house, maybe I could. But my time has been sabotaged asymmetrically almost everyday reducing my potential 12-14 hour work days to 2-4.

When you have ie 3 months worth of work todo, being slowed down by 4x means the work will now take 1 year. I’ve tried to explain this to the culprit parties. They don’t care.

I’m out of my 50k savings. The bathrooms are done and one ceiling out of 8 are done. No closets out of 4.

I’ll have to get a new job and without the ability to move it’ll be fucked. If I move I’ll most likely have to sell at basically no significant value added. I’ll be basically fucking completely obliterated.

All because I couldn’t make time and get the place in a rentable state before being free to move anywhere a good job might take me. The repercussions of this fuck up are years, wasting time with a wrong bouncer company, and 100-200 or more in thousands lost.

All because the fucking election was rigged and some liberal pieces of shit actually did vote Biden.

[–] • 4 pts

What is the connection between the stolen election and your renovation? Your post does not make sense to me.

[–] • 1 pt

Covid was a part of the stolen election. I lost the job because of covid. Losing the job got me stuck doing the renovation myself or getting stuck in a shitty situation where it wasn’t ideal to get another job at the same place. Oh well.

The post overall is less about the reno and more about they are ruining our lives causing us all to break.

[–] • 2 pts (edited )

Off topic...

Can I ask why you wanted to lower the ceilings? In a rave of high ceilings and shown beams when they can be done nicely, to give the appearance of increased room...

Sorry, If you don't want to answer. It's OK. It is something I just can't quite wrap my head around. I saw it in another comment, I think was also you, but I wouldn't swear to that :D

[–] • 2 pts

The ceilings were concrete and I wanted to put in ceiling lights so the only way was to run a wire across the ceiling and ie do track lighting which is ugly or just lower it two inches.

Every time I do something like this for the first time it takes about 2x. But a 100 sq ft room I got wired and framed and dry walled in a week, and spackled in another week. And those are with 4 hour work days. It’s sad to watch. Because it could have taken 3x less time with normal work days.

I’m posting this half because I’m about to be forced to commit to obliteration, and half because liberals‘ fucking choice to choose Biden, and it being rigged is destroying us all. They are engineering our life experience to destroy and crack our existence.

[–] • 2 pts

got it. Once explained it made perfect sense.