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It's been years since some of the most important people in my family passed away. For years, I was fine operated normally, nothing really seemed to register as a problem. But now all of a sudden, it feels like my brain is cracking from all sides. I'm overthinking things to an absurd degree, my brain is no longer able to process basic emotions properly, and all I do is get flashbacks to my past. For a long time I supressed my feelings with copious amounts of alcohol, and now that I'm fully sober, my brain is going absolutely insane. But why would my brain do this to me after so many years? Would it not make more sense it would have snapped way earlier on?

It's been years since some of the most important people in my family passed away. For years, I was fine operated normally, nothing really seemed to register as a problem. But now all of a sudden, it feels like my brain is cracking from all sides. I'm overthinking things to an absurd degree, my brain is no longer able to process basic emotions properly, and all I do is get flashbacks to my past. For a long time I supressed my feelings with copious amounts of alcohol, and now that I'm fully sober, my brain is going absolutely insane. But why would my brain do this to me after so many years? Would it not make more sense it would have snapped way earlier on?

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[–] • 3 pts

It can take time for you (subconsciously) to find it within yourself to process strong emotion.

I don't know that this PTSD stuff is real, I know that there is stress while you process, and that the processing is required, or you stagnate. If you think its real, and that gives you some measure of hope, or comfort, then please hold to that view. I am just a bit too jaded from a life that is replete with loss.

It took me a while to learn that. I still haven't been able to say I've fully processed the thoughts and feelings behind all of the memories, and know that I still catch myself processing "what if"s.

I wouldn't refer to that as a disorder, I'd see it as a normal process for the human condition.

[–] • 3 pts

PTSD can absolutely manifest years , even decades after the fact. I have PTSD from childhood trauma , didn't really act up in a big way until late 30s -40s , went through all kinds of hell with it. Was suicidal , abusing narcotics big time , life was just spinning out of control.

Went to a few psychologists , most just wanted to give me more drugs , finally found one who actually helped me , without drugs .

Find someone who specializes in PTSD , that doesn't use psych meds as the only option. It sucks brother , lotta work , facing shit you tried to bury for decades , even gets worse before it gets better , but it will get better !

Best of luck , fight through it , don't give up. My life ain't perfect now , but it's whole lot better than it was . You'll get there too.

[–] • 3 pts

I'm a professional hypnotist and I work with this kind of thing all the time. Yes, what you are experiencing is not uncommon.

[–] • 1 pt

roflmao

i went to one of those cranks once. charged me $250 to 'stop me smoking'

i never paid them. they can take me to court if they want my money.

[–] • 2 pts

Have you found yourself standing in the street late at night, barking like a dog? Post-hypnotic suggestion can be a bitch.

[–] • 1 pt

cant say i have.

hypnotism only works on retards who will believe anything theyre told because they want to.

did quit smoking tho.

[–] • 0 pt

My mom was operated on twice by 'licensed professional' hacks, who destroyed her body and exacerbated her condition instead of helping it with shoddy work. I guess that means all doctors at bullshit. I mean, there is no real licensing, oversight, or professional standards in the field of hypnosis. any quack can flood the field and dilute the true practitioners, but I guess since you got duped by a conman ALL hypnosis is bullshit.

[–] • 1 pt

Did you get the Covid shots? They can have a delayed reaction on your brain and nervous system.

[–] • 1 pt (edited )

I dunno I lost my job slightly before the 2020 election. For Covid reasons. I watched them rig the election. I was stuck in a property I intended to renovate before renting out.

We met with a designer who said it would cost $200k. The max amount we could expect the value to rise was 100k. So I decided to do the bathrooms, sliding doors, lowered ceilings and closets myself to lower the burden.

I literally figured ie a sliding door would take a week. If I had full working days like any man normally would in their own house, maybe I could. But my time has been sabotaged asymmetrically almost everyday reducing my potential 12-14 hour work days to 2-4.

When you have ie 3 months worth of work todo, being slowed down by 4x means the work will now take 1 year. I’ve tried to explain this to the culprit parties. They don’t care.

I’m out of my 50k savings. The bathrooms are done and one ceiling out of 8 are done. No closets out of 4.

I’ll have to get a new job and without the ability to move it’ll be fucked. If I move I’ll most likely have to sell at basically no significant value added. I’ll be basically fucking completely obliterated.

All because I couldn’t make time and get the place in a rentable state before being free to move anywhere a good job might take me. The repercussions of this fuck up are years, wasting time with a wrong bouncer company, and 100-200 or more in thousands lost.

All because the fucking election was rigged and some liberal pieces of shit actually did vote Biden.

[–] • 4 pts

What is the connection between the stolen election and your renovation? Your post does not make sense to me.

[–] • 1 pt

Covid was a part of the stolen election. I lost the job because of covid. Losing the job got me stuck doing the renovation myself or getting stuck in a shitty situation where it wasn’t ideal to get another job at the same place. Oh well.

The post overall is less about the reno and more about they are ruining our lives causing us all to break.

[–] • 2 pts (edited )

Off topic...

Can I ask why you wanted to lower the ceilings? In a rave of high ceilings and shown beams when they can be done nicely, to give the appearance of increased room...

Sorry, If you don't want to answer. It's OK. It is something I just can't quite wrap my head around. I saw it in another comment, I think was also you, but I wouldn't swear to that :D

[–] • 2 pts

The ceilings were concrete and I wanted to put in ceiling lights so the only way was to run a wire across the ceiling and ie do track lighting which is ugly or just lower it two inches.

Every time I do something like this for the first time it takes about 2x. But a 100 sq ft room I got wired and framed and dry walled in a week, and spackled in another week. And those are with 4 hour work days. It’s sad to watch. Because it could have taken 3x less time with normal work days.

I’m posting this half because I’m about to be forced to commit to obliteration, and half because liberals‘ fucking choice to choose Biden, and it being rigged is destroying us all. They are engineering our life experience to destroy and crack our existence.

[–] • 2 pts

got it. Once explained it made perfect sense.

[–] • 0 pt

You were suppressing your honest and truthful thoughts with alcohol, which is the way that a lot of people, including myself, do it.

You stopped using alcohol.

Now you can't stop the thoughts of the past from haunting you.

It isn't PTSD.

It is the pain of existence.

It won't ever get better.

Every moment of every day, you will think about all the mistakes you made, all the pain you caused everyone else, and the pain everyone else as caused you.

Alcohol makes your brain myopic. You can focus on a brief distraction for one moment in time, and not think about anything else.

And now you don't drink, and you have the delight of thinking about everything awful all at once.

You won't be happy, it isn't meant for people like you and me.

You have to choose.

What kind of life do you want to live?

You have already acknowledged your feelings, so you have three choices left, to paraphrase Tolstoy.

Live life to the fullest, in the most Epicurean sensibility.

Eat, Drink, Fuck, Be Merry, and Ignore that dreadful feeling that you are indeed bringing more misery into this world.

Readily acknowledge how awful life is, and what you have done to further its' misery. Do nothing, and be a coward.

Or be Brave, and fully admit that you are fool, and this Existence was a trick played upon you, and refuse to play the game.

You'll have to kill yourself.

[–] • 2 pts

Theo, do you think you could use your genius for the good this time or are you determined to commit it to evil?

[–] • 2 pts

I don't think it is Good vs Evil anymore.

It is Existence vs Non-Existence.

That it the North and South of my moral map. I am firmly on the side of Non-existence.

That being said, the East and West of my moral compass consist of being able to take a joke or being an uptight wad of shit.

If I'm going to exist, I'd rather propagate jokes.

[–] • 1 pt

Sleep well then, and maybe tomorrow when the sun rises, you will find a better joke to tell. :)

[–] • 1 pt

You are a cunt.

[–] • 1 pt (edited )

Ya know, you aren't wrong.

Thanks for the down vote.

[–] • 1 pt

I don't dv any more. Haven't for a while

[–] • 0 pt

Yeah...STOP being thinned-skinned PUSSIES!

[–] • 0 pt

you got jabbed didnt you.

[–] • 0 pt

Doesn't sound like PTSD.

If you drink/drugs to avoid emotions, you never properly coped in a healthy way. It's pretty common for teenagers who are addicts into adulthood sober up and realize they never learned how to be adults, so they act like teenagers and have to re-go through that part of life sober to grow out of it.

It sounds like the things you never dealt with are now having a chace to since you're sober. That + hormonal imbalances in your brain due to alcohol can take a while to level back out.

Stay sober. Work on healthy coping skills.

Once you master coping skills you can literally get over anything pretty easily.