But What I’m talking about is the knee-jerk delivery of the assertion of their own disbelief. They aren’t even interested in mine, only their own lack. It’s fucking odd. Like talking to a nihilistic narcissist robot.
I’m curious about your beliefs because you just delivered me an interesting story, and I care about your well-being.
We were Created.
Call it the Big Bang, or Physics, or God, some force at one point Forced all of us into Existence.
It could be random chance, like the Atheist says, or it could be divine force, like the Theist insists.
It is still Fucked-Up.
I never consented to Existence.
I never consented to having a conscious Mind.
I know, that no matter how hard I try, I will fail other people in my life.
And I Hate that.
The thought of not being able to make other people's lives perfect disgusts me and makes me hate myself.
I try so fucking hard, everyday, and I am usually pretty good at it.
But when I do fail, I add misery to the World, and that is something I never want to do.
This is not a good place.
This Place is Wicked.
And thank you for the exchange. I hope the people in your life appreciate your help, successful or not.
Thanks, dude.
You are making the suffering in this world slightly less palpable.
It is wicked, and getting more so. I usually stay on my farm but I’ve had to do some traveling recently and it’s fucking dire.
I read a book years and years ago about a group of people who believed that in order to be enlightened, you first had to have the worst thing in existence to push back on. Makes sense, really. If you’re going to escape samsara or what have you, you better do something extreme. This could actually be that situation.
I want to say, but cannot source ATM, that in the early days of Soviet Communism, there were the Old Believers in the North.
Just Old school Russian Orthodox Motherfuckers who went to remote parts of Russia, more or less to be left alone and do their own thing.
I think they did it pretty successfully for quite some years.
Then, a random Soviet plane happened to spot them, doing their own thing, bothering nobody.
And they all went to the Gulags for minding their own business.
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