Dude I'm so empty and hopeless right now it's weird because I've never been this way I've always been an optimist and in general happy and content I don't know how a person can effect someone so much... I'd describe it as losing a wife before you had kids like she died... but the person is alive and you just found out they have a serious mental thing going on and even though you know you can help them they still turn towards negative options.. I'd say having a kid addicted as they destr9y their lives would be similar... now I'm just trying to get by