Get your hands on a 2g of dmt, and an MAOI. They don't tell you the fact that your entire nervous system triples in size (the thickness of all of your nerves) after a 50mg hit. 99.99% pure dmt, less the alkaloids, has the most uncomfortable, yet most profound effect. Do dmt alongside a few others, and you'll quickly learn that we're all telepathic. You can ask a friend to do whatever, I asked a friend to get up and then sit down, without saying anything. We think 500x faster than we speak, their reaction was damn near instantaneous, as in as I thought it, they did it. The other two in the room didn't question the abnormal getting up and sitting down because they knew too. I'm telling you this to convey that the universe has a sort of telepathic Internet, you can tap into all the beings and ask for answers to your most sought-after questions. I asked the question you asked, and got back 'to learn' from the entities. I've known of alien existence, but you won't really believe it until 1.) You're abducted or 2.) You do dmt (an hour sesh of vapehuasca will likely answer all your questions, and more). The entities are eager to teach, though you have to enter that plane with humility. Also too much dmt is bad, it's better to get into meditation and exercise releasing your own dmt (our liver, lungs, and pineal gland produce it, on the same levels as serotonin). dmt is inherently esoteric, it's been years since I've touched the stuff and it's what's led me to this site. It opens your mind, you are blatantly told the truth if you just ask whilst on the shit.