Just wow. Yeah coincidence, synchronicity, happenstance, butterfly effect , will of God and all that - one can go through their entire life and never see it or see it all around them or something in between . I still have no idea personally - but i can't completely dismiss it either so i'll definitely take it if i can get it.
I usually chalk up stuff like this to pure coincidence. But the monumentality of it all, and the sheer importance to me that the outcome had (because I didn't want my mother suffering and dying like this) perhaps makes me view it differently?
As a lifelong atheist who has wanted to believe (I just have trouble shutting off that rational part of my brain and giving myself fully over to the concept of faith, maybe it's because I'm autistic or something), this sort of thing really gets in my head. But then I think, isn't it really arrogant for me to believe that God, the all-knowing, all-powerful ruler/creator of the universe and all of its wonders (and horrors) would single me and my mother out to help like this? Confusing stuff.
Yes confusing. I too would like to believe, however my rational part of the brain also has serious questions etc. For the longest time i believed 'live and let live' was the answer - Lets all just get along. I now know that doesn't work for the long term viability, welfare of me or my family, it also means i have a duty to put my beliefs into action to further the type of community i want for my kids when i'm gone and that includes to attempt to actively do something about things i believe are thoroughly detestable, inappropriate, immoral and degenerate. Which in a way is exactly what a true belief in a God requires, imo (doing things to make a better place) So i dunno man, perplexing full circle stuff. But meh i digress, Peace and blessings
EDIT: Someone would say, 'You're only as arrogant to believe in being singled out' as an animal in a large herd thinking it was arrogant that the Farmer would single it out when sick to cure it - who knows bud. I don't.
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