Not long ago, I was exhausted and hungry and tired and alone in the wilderness. I went out to have fun but pushed it a bit to far and my body crashed out to an extent. Nothing crazy, but I was in a compromised state. I suddenly felt it. I started to apologize to God. I just said I was sorry and did my best to think of all my mistakes. They were lifted off of me.
I've been struggling with this experience since. I'm a high intellect person who needs proof for things, so it's a struggle. I think I'm there now, or at least on the path. We don't need Priests. We just need to give in, seems to me. Submit. In that respect, the Muslims get it right. Submission is everything.

I see jews are still working hard at using Christianity as a subversion tool. Nice try jew.

You jews should really put a bit more effort into your subvesions. Hasn't been going that well for you since you botched the "pandemic" and accidentally caused a mass awakening.

Lucifer is not Satan of course

Spiritual knowledge can be dangerous if you believe you are the possessor of something out of God's world and use it to selfishly instill fear in others. Always remember Lucifer's knowledge comes from God. I would disagree that Lucifiarnaism and Satanism are simply about spiritual liberation without words of control, tyranny, and fear. Perhaps there is some misinterpretation of each other's 'isms' and a middle-ground could be formed based on each virtue. Similar to how governments call themselves one thing but actually represent another. (ex: Nazism / Fascism / Communism/ Socialism).

In order to go down that path, you have to accept "Do what thou wilt". I cannot. Some things are wrong. I'm aware of the supposed difference between Lucifer and Satan. It's all quite clever. It seems like a spiritual intelligence test.

Not against Christianity at all, though relying on Jesus/God to fix everything won't help you in the immediate term. You're best off trying to forge your way through this, rather than leaving it to something supernatural to do it for you.

I completely understand that view as I think that is true for most.

Knowing the truth is important as a Christian as Jesus doesn't hide behind lies. What makes the truth dangerous is that the higher truths are only for the bravest and most courageous ones (notice how I avoided the word "Fearless"). What you refer to as "Redpills" are tiny douses of the truth that are meant to be slowly spoon-fed with time to digest and think about for good reason. It is very easy to overdose on the truth as it is addicting and dangerous in high amounts. Higher truths are red mountains compared to red pills and aren't easy to swallow and can cause massive pain if you don't have good faith.

As for leveraging power, I think most say they would never do it, but it's important to understand that absolute power corrupts absolutely, and sometimes even just handing off the power or receiving it is destructive itself. I say save the power for God and let him handle the things that would require using it. Pray to him when you need his blessings as you will receive them.

I mean, we're on the same side, but I question your tactics.

Sit, walk, stand, by Watchman Nee is really good for beginning your walk with God. Anything by Watchman Nee or Andrew Murray, really. I own probably 20+ books of Nee and more of Murray.

Any sermon by Ravenhill, A.W. Tozer, Andrew Murray, I like some of Charles Spurgeon. You can listen to all of them free on YouTube(including Nee). These guys stayed true to the Bible instead of selling out to big Christian schools and the doctrines they teach. They're all old school. It's crazy to hear them talk about how fallen the church was 200-50 years ago.

If you'd like more specific recommendations let me know. I liked looking at the content and choosing that which piqued my interest most, and work my way through their content as I became more familiar with them. Ravenhill has an accent that takes a moment to get used to but he's my favorite.

The best thing about all of it is learning that it is nothing like what they have you believe in church. I spent many years searching for God in all the wrong ways because it did not fit into the box I was taught. Faith is very simple and very personal. It is never about what you do or have done to earn your way into grace. You are already given grace. The spirit works within you to correct the things that are not Christ like. If you lean upon your self to try to be better you will always fail, but with the spirit you are given a new heart and understanding which create new features and you go through a process of cleansing of the things that are counter Christ. You literally begin to change and it is often effortless. Not always though!

If you get into any of these guys I would love to hear your thoughts. I only have two friends who are actually believers of Christ. I do not call them Christian, as it's a meaningless word now. Churches are full of paganism these days, and everyone in them is a "Christian".