I would do it now if I knew I’d get away with it. I just wanna blow a niggers head off. I mean I’d really prefer to stab somebody. I got this big hunting knife and I look at it every night and fantasize and visualize stabbing it into somebody’s stomach till my arm gets tired. Sounds edgy or whatever but it’s just the truth. I think a lot of people feel this way they just won’t admit it. Iv always wondered if killing somebody would bother me like it does some people and I just can’t see it
I just air-gun the screen, pow, that works for me
I had to beat my neighbors ass a few months ago and I keep hoping he’ll come back so I can kill him but he hasn’t yet
He’ll come by when you least expect it, don’t relax Lol Nobody comes back for a second ass kicking, do they?
I used to kill cats and you know other animals. You know that feeling where you see something and you wanna hurt it so bad. Well I went through with that. It’s like a high. It is a high. I used to take opiates and amphetamines. And I would brutalize them. I’m not a psycho: I know it’s wrong but it feels so good. It feels like power. Like being god or something. Like adrenaline like focus like a rush like evil but it’s intoxicating. I figured it out when I was a kid: there was a cat and I was petting it. Then I just randomly got the urge to start choking it. So I did. I squeezed it’s neck as hard as I could: it started clawing me and it felt good: I didn’t kill that one but that was the door and I stepped through it. I’m telling you. There’s nothing like it. I try not to do it. If I see like a cat I get those familiar feelings. Or some dogs. The way they look at you or something I can’t really put my finger on it. I would do it then always jerk off afterwards
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