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I like that you actually defined yourself through the relationships with the people around you instead of giving yourself an assement. Thats probably the most accurate method and what led me to ask the question. Thank you for asking in turn.

A friend introduced me to someone recently and it went "this is dillonkkk and he's not like most people". I was kind of insulted, I put effort into appearing normal on the outside. He ruined the charade. I have a few people in my life that I platonically love and am lived in return. I can make friends on a superficial level but I don't care to invest energy in most people as I'm extremely selfish. it reflects because I can't form meaningful romantic relationships. Something is missing in the equation of life and im unsure still what it is.

In regards to your son, when I was a messed up teen I didn't know what was going on emotionally but I liked people who took an interest in my life by asking questions

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Well I certainly wont tell you how you should feel about that introduction, but it was a good one in my estimation. It's good to not be like average people.

I'm glad that you have love in your life, even if it isn't the romantic kind. I think its important, even if its just the love of a pet. There is something about giving of yourself without expectation in return.

I can't do the superficial stuff, well I should say I refuse to do it. I did do it once, and I found myself having a really hard time being around to hear what the topics of conversation were. I think its very different with men, though, because before I got married I could do the general light topics just fine. Usually it involved a skill or learning something, not a total consumerist mindset(I worked in male dominated environments and had many friends and peers) I do not fraternize with men anymore since I am married, outside of my father and on occasion his friends. I do miss it. But it isn't appropriate.

Are you really selfish? To be quite frank I dont know your age range but if I had to date in this world I'd be single, too. Things were already getting bad when I met my husband, I had given up at that time and it was nothing like the shit show happening today.

I hold a lot of hope for my son. I have no idea where to look for help with him. They guilted me into a flu vaccine(said if I got the flu he would die), the first I'd ever had in my life, when I was 2 months pregnant with him. He came out screaming, and like a barracuda, and so many food intolerances, later diagnosed with aspergers and severe lack of short term/working memory. So, we have daily problems with consequences from actions not being understood as well as lack of proper emotional responses to things. I try so very hard, so very hard, and feel so guilty, for my naivete and trust in a system. His problems led to me realizing that the world is not at all what it seems. It was a steep price I would rather he not have paid. He's 14 now, and thats a hard enough time in ones life without the other problems he has. I am hoping that puberty will help correct some of the problems with HGH, maybe repair things or create growth around whatever was damaged.