No one considers a convert to be a real jew. A gentile who converts to judaism is looked at by jews like wigger wannabe gangsta is looked on by real niggers. You aren't anywhere close to the real deal, and you are at best a useful tool to be discarded when you are no longer useful. You will be an eternal outsider, kept on the periphery far away from the secrets, and be the one at the lowest priority in the community, if you get access at all. Jews see themselves as a race, religion is merely a cultural fixture to the race, and a convert can imitate the latter, but never the former, they are not to be trusted. The only way to bypass this is by use of jewface, convincing them that you are a jew by ethnicity and ancestry, and somehow keeping up the cover in front of the (likely suspicious) jewish community leaders.