Having a drinking problem can kill you. Correcting it is your first order of business. Escape monotony at all costs. Explore how drinking hurts you and how it affects your relationships. Do you feel unmotivated because of your drinking, or do you drink because you're unmotivated? When has drinking made anything easier for you? Do you feel healthier when drinking? Do people enjoy being around you when you're drunk? How many of your friends do you drink with and how often? When was the last time you did something fun without drinking? How often do you choose drinking over things that are more likely to help you prosper? If you had an older brother, would he confront you about how often you drink? What about your dad? You *can* stop drinking. Even though drinking isn't always a bad thing, it tends to amplify our other problems. Drink to celebrate, to enjoy company. Drinking to numb feelings you aren't comfortable with is self-harm. You wouldn't stab yourself, would you? You can correct this behavior. Building discipline is your first step. If you'd like to talk more, feel free to DM me.