You’re lucky that you had a best friend. I’ve always wanted one but I’m extremely loyal and expect the same. My standards for best friends are too high so I don’t have any. Outside of my family I don’t really talk to anyone. I’m lucky that my wife is the way that she is, we can talk about anything and she’s fun and athletic and we can go do adventurous stuff together and our kids enjoy that stuff too. But there is something missing when you don’t have male friends. The guy who came closest also died in a car accident, like your friend. It was senseless and avoidable and he was one of the nicest people I’ve ever met. It’s very sad.