It's hard to explain but I think it has more to do with my belief in Faith and Spirituality. I believe in a Spiritual Connection and us being Human we all have Souls and I'm sure others have had feelings of deja vu or dreams with premonitions.

I had an older roommate Die and be declared dead at the hospital by several Doctors and when I received the texts from friends and family informing me he had died I fell asleep for about 15 minutes. In my sleep I dreamed in that 15 minutes and spoke to my dead roommate in the stairs as I was walking up to his room because we lived in a townhouse and he lived up stairs. I told him that he had been pronounced dead and he told me he didn't die but their was a problem around his back shoulder and ribs but it's better now. When I woke up I received a text about 20 minutes later saying he wasn't dead after all after plenty of Doctors had pronounced him dead.

Of course I have many other examples of not only what I believe to be only possible due to miracles. I used to like to go to Church when I was younger even on Wednesdays but after growing up I've learned how flawed churches and even religions are. I even read Sylvia Brown's Spirit Guide to the Other Side when I was younger. While she's nuttier than squirrel turds something opened inside my sub conscious and I had become more spiritually aware or awakened. I'm not a medium or psychic but their have also been times where I knew things I didn't even know I knew and even felt things were going to happen before they'd happened.

I could literally go on and on but for the most part it's because of my belief system and Faith. Nobody could tell me this is the end all be all... I've personally have had too many experiences at least in my opinion where, well Faith is a very powerful thing and there's definitely something bigger out there and we all play a part.

With all that being said when I do go I'm not going to be physically roaming this earth anymore but my spirit may be floating around here or the cosmos or I might even come back in utero, who knows... but nobody can convince me it ends at death. It's just one of those things that'll remain unexplainable but I have an old soul and have lived plenty of past lives before so with all that being said it's just affirmed and known in my mind as fact that God exists as well as Souls. Not my first go round and this Life won't be my last. It really is hard to explain but such a fascinating subject that'll always have it's skepticism and criticism but I'm steadfast in my belief. Gott mit uns and Deus Vult.

It just makes sense.

Back when i was younger I was asked the question; "who observes the observer"

Took me a good year of pondering it before it dawned on me (something ive always known) that i observer my thoughts, and one layer deeper, i observe my emotions. Which i gather is what spawns my thoughts..

So what am i? I can control this hand. I call it MY body.. So i am not it..

That together with doing a ton of research, one small drop in that lake was reading about children talking about past lives.. Awesome shit, and very real.

Then i read the ringing cedars of russia, and everything clicked.