Thanks. Obviously that's a short answer but without a keyboard I can't give you a couple chapters on early development. Main point is, a boy needs a father as mentor. My father was a drunk and mostly absent but I was lucky. Grandpa took his place and was the first to let me drive his ten wheeler flatbed truck. I was thrilled, proud and totally surprised. That moment when got in the passenger seat I thought he had gotten lost and when I asked him what his problem was he said simply, "You're driving." I felt like my world had just shifted. It was like a dream come true. For the next six hours I was in absolute bliss. Before that moment I had taken driving lessons, gotten my license, been allowed short solitary trips on errands in the family car but only allowed to move the company trucks in the parking lot. But see, it was many years of spending time with grandpa and seeing him in charge, driving the trucks, that made this important to me. I was modeling my aspirations and identity with Grandpa. This of course has no conflict with by mental structure. The problem a trannie has is that they don't have the hardwired responses to be female so they fake it by mimicking being feminine. It's emotionally exhausting so they have a high rate of suicides.