You are clearly a sociopath which is a necessary survival skill in Clown World.
After I buried my own infant daughter I now feel the same. Death is inevitable.
Holy smokes. That's intense. Literally my nightmare. I'm sorry, man.
My condolences. Has to be a parents worst nightmare. Hope you're doing better, if that's possible.
Now that would be harder, but my son is grown now so it wouldnt be the same. Losing an infant would presumably affect someone else and your situation in life. Im sorry man.
From my perspective the deceased have either passed on to meet the Creator before me or they are damned forever. Either way they're beyond the reach of my tears. I felt infinitely more pain and was crying out to God to leave her with me while she was dying. But once she was gone I took it as my duty to accept the decision of the Almighty and carry on as a man.
My condolences , no one should have to go thru that. I hope u make peace with that someday , if you haven't already
Life - nobody gets out alive.
Not at all but. I am the same way and look at the human species as no better than any other, perhaps less deserving of a continued existence. I hate the phrase “sorry for your loss “ because it is hallow and I don’t care.
Lost my dad 20 years ago, my mother 2 years ago, and my sister 2 months ago. Now I'm on my way out soon. I'm sure we have defense mechanisms that help shield us from disabling grief, so we can carry on with our own lives. Here's song that has a little wisdom to it that's been of comfort to me lately.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=It1kDQyi7ws
"...Is it really an eternal Life we should seek?
Our mission is more than a struggle for breathe
Or a few extra rounds in our fight to the death
When our mission is Love and Compassion and Grace
It's not a test of endurance or a marathon race
For Love is the sabre and Love is the shield
Love is the only true power we wield
And Eternal Love is all you should seek"
Im kinda ok with it, when its your time its your time shit. But depending how you go it could be scary. I mean Im not equating with getting your breath knocked out but when you think you cant breathe it sucks.
Good song, a different sting than I remember.
His whole stage play, The Last Ship, is quite good. This is the only somber song in it, the rest are some rousing English Pub songs and whatnot.
The guitarist is GE Smith, who has played with a lot of people. He was in the Tonight Show Band when Leno was there and was on stage with Dylan, Petty, Clapton, Harrison, McGuinn, etc in their 30th Anniversary show.
Sounds like you are just questioning yourself for not feeling bad about something that everyone always says you should feel bad about. It doesn't help, for instance, when someone dies and everyone gives you all the sorry looks and phrases, and you barely knew the person or simply have accepted death as part of life. Hell, there have been some instances when I have been glad someone has passed just so that they are no longer suffering, but that doesn't mean I don't miss them or didn't love them. Chalk it up to human duality and being a decent enough person to care about your connections to those close to you. Sorry for the wall of text.
You don't feel anything because you didn't bond with those people. You're right, the world will keep going with people around or otherwise. It will keep going when you die, how do you feel about your own mortality?
Then you are at peace with the cycle of death and birth. One final question, have you ever known yourself to be unaware?
I am 34 and am not bothered by death of family or friends.
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You've been in my head haven't you ? I think the same way. My mom will be going sooner rather than later , but I'm not really sad about it. People are born , live , and die. I am over half way thru life , and while I'm not really in a hurry to go , I accept that go I will
I know what you mean, I lost relatives and felt pretty numb, but my sister's dog died and I still cry over him sometimes.
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