i have to learn to modulate the cut off to what they are willing to provide in return (as you said) because otherwise i would be completely alone. emotions make it really hard to see lucid reality when in the moment though. I'm not great at expressing myself clearly without time to think and no one gives you time to think when in a conversation, its always interruptions and talking over. Thanks for listening though. I appreciate being able to tell someone.
No worries.. I've experienced the exact same thing. You have to develop a certain hardness to get by. And loneliness sucks but it's something you can get used to. The key is to find a few friends who are decent people who can respect you. Also remember that because you are the way you are, people will need what you have long before you need what they have.
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