I'd say you weren't just aware and discerning, but also dutiful and diligent about your safety. There's nothing to feel like an idiot about. I myself tried to give presentations to the normies in my workplace, based on what information I had gathered until February. Virtually no-one came or had any interest, just my boss. During the first lock-down in March/April '20, my pattern recognition finally kicked, because the inconsistencies and unlikelihoods in the official coverage just mounted up. I'd say I am more of a fool than you, because I did not prep beyond hoarding some food. I wish I had gotten land back then. Still could, but where I life that won't guarantee you peace and quiet.