Maybe do some mushrooms. Find someone who's experienced and sit back and enjoy the ride. It probably won't be very pleasant if you've ever dealt with serious shit. But it will help you process and work through it. I can't forgive myself, but I've accepted it and who I am, and how I could use my strengths to maybe leave the world a better, whiter place.
You haven't told us what's wrong. If you're just aimless, or have lost hope for yourself, or the world and your place in it. Mushrooms will probably help with all of them if you let them.
Well I will say it for the third time now being 19 is my problem because as you said it makes me feel aimless and lost.
Work hard, get out and live your life like you're going to die tomorrow(just try not to die), gain some experience and more importantly, self worth. People bullshit themselves into incredible situations all the time. Work hard too and you'll go far. Learn to do a bunch of different things for work and pleasure, try to live a healthy active lifestyle. Spend lots of time in nature and try to understand how lucky you are to have access to all the things you do.
When I was 19 I had 1 year of paying rent under my belt. I had been homeless for 3 years as a teenager. 15-18. I sold crack. Slept under bridges and on river banks with rats trying to squirm under me for warmth. Got stabbed in the face. Watched people get murdered. Saw lots of my friends die. I spent a good part of my 20s just trying to recover and figure out my place in the normal world. If you're lucky, you'll figure it out faster than I did and without as much hatred for society.
Thanks for telling me that Im sorry you had to go through that. Also how old are you now.
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