Part of me thinks she would have kept it in if the roles were reversed. She was a very hard catch for me at the time, and very understanding of me. I honestly always thought she was a saint in a way for being able to fix so many of my flaws, and make me so happy. She taught me everything i know about confidence and self esteem. And yet here i am, flaws and all, and back to being alone
sorry pal. she wouldnt have
It's especially unfortunate that you are going through this while churches and support groups are shuttered, but I encourage you to seek out the fellowship of others going through what you are. At a minimum, I would look into whether your employer offers counselling via your benefits. Losing a spouse is an especially traumatic event that shouldn't be navigated alone.
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