Knowing that it is supposed to be this way.
Life was never meant to be easy. It is the way that you are honed into either a great soul or a shitty soul. No one ever became better by never encountering hardships, change, or loss.
I had this perspective before I found God. Now that I have found him, the sense of purpose has increased and the losses have meaning, the insanity has purpose.
Being alive and existing is a miracle far too complex to get into the details of this early in the morning, but this life we have been given is a test that will mold you into the best version of yourself through this hardship. What you have been given (a soul capable of thought and experience) is the most precious and bizarre concept known to man, but you can't have the best without the worst of it.
There is pain, loss and sorrow, but there is almost always an end to these things, eventually, and out of these hardships comes the foundations to build something anew. In order to participate in this test of life and prevail, you must build off what it throws at you, and learn to navigate through the hardships should they come around again; with better defenses, stronger will, higher consciousness, etc. It was never meant to be easy, nor should it be, because it is a gift given to you for free that is so utterly and inexplicably divine that you must in some ways become worthy of it in order to progress in a fulfilling manner.
Get motivated to find a hobby you love the shit out of and put energy into that (not video games or drugs) and send love to your family (like today, call someone from your family today, do it!), and you will already start to feel better.
Thanks, needed a reminder.
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