Congrats dude, glad you are doing a lot better. Dump that poison in the house down the drain. You aren't going to use it. I never spent the day in bed but I have definitely wasted plenty of days.
Frankly mentioning it, was the first time I thought about it in a WHILE. I think last time, was I was thinking if I was going to make it through christmas and new years. Then I forgot all about it. Just didn't enter my mind.
No point in going back. It wasn't doing anything positive for you. Everything is better once you quit drinking, which is why I don't understand why I don't do it.
Yes everything (in unquantifiable intangible way) is better, and THAT frees up your mind for OTHER things, and it snowballs I suppose, and you do NOT want to lose it after experiencing it after it gets started in your life, and you REGRET that you NEVER could SEE it before, but you know WHY you couldn't. The Alcohol PREVENTED you from seeing, because you did if often enough that you were suppressed under it's spell, and it brought out EVIL/BAD (consistently) that was in you but you thought that was YOU (you had nothing to compare it too), You couldn't see the forest for the trees. and if you didn't drink enough for that, there was no point in drinking at all. so you never experienced the contrast a habitual drinker WILL. so you probably didn't. HOWEVER the posers.. People who (who was that senator indian poser bitch who drank a beer on camera) are EVIL, will USE it as a prop (while they SPY on and manipulate people as a phony). I guess.
BUT, some people are in too deep too. I suppose. Wheels are in motion. you jump off a skyscraper, you go SPLAT. Don't know how quitting works for everybody (situations differ). just saying, in some ways (maybe not a LIFE TURNAROUND of FORTUNES) it WILL improve and you'll (me) wonder WHY you never saw it BEFORE. You couldn't. That's why.
The DEPRESSION (day after suddenly starting) was my initial motivation. them TIME, slow progression..then BLAMO. Different man. HATES liberals. HATES heathens and infidels and knows WHY.
My entire life, a lost "lamb". misguided, no shepherd..hopeless. suddenly after all of the unpleasantness and regret, a tiny personal miracle? and it DID change my life, and i no longer "require" alcohol AND I'm not dancing to the beat of some fucking liberal LIAR. Like to FIX that for future generations. Perhaps it's my calling. NOT SURE. Waiting on God. (found Bible YEARS before I stopped drinking. 7?).
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