Whats involved with calibrating a plasma TV?
Tonight I'm really just dwelling on the many mistakes I made and hardships I faced in this last year. Trying not to blame myself too much but also trying to commit to improvement
Feeling like a fucking loser if I'm being totally honest
Don't beat yourself too hard. I lost everything last year too. Just find projects to keep yourself busy. That's what I've been doing and it helps.
I want you to do this mental exercise. Even if you can only do it for 15 minutes.
Pretend that you legitimately like yourself and accept yourself exactly the way you are. Pretend that you have moved on from your past mistakes and despite them still like the reflection you see when you look in the mirror.
Really try this, keep your mind focused on the exercise and if you drift bring it back. Commit to trying this for 15 minutes, set a timer.
I'm going to show you something
Well tbh, I have a pretty high self esteem. But this year has really tested me and I've faltered a lot. I think I've destroyed a beautiful relationship and really hurt a woman I care deeply for
More so than needing to feel love for myself, I'm just sad that I was weak. I've pushed myself 110% this year. Meanwhile person after person I sought support from ended up not being their for me
My professional goals were completely ruptured from the networking restrictions with covid. And my mental health has never been lower
BTW you never explained plasma calibration
This will take you into the world of TV calibration https://youtu.be/LfmtSNyt6V4
Just remember life is ups and downs. There will be good years and bad years alike. It is and always will be that way for everybody on this planet, you are not alone.
Whenever I am personally going through something like you've described I try to keep something very important in mind: often times in life when you think you are going through something terrible in reality something great is happening. It just may take you time to realize this.
I've lost jobs. At the time it seemed terrible but I ended up finding better jobs.
I've destroyed good relationships. At the time it seemed terrible but I ended up meeting someone I like even more.
I think you probably understand the point I'm trying to make but I would bet my life one day you'll look back in the future and realize that this was actually a good year for you because it ended up leading to better things and made you stronger.
Life has a funny way of teaching us lessons.
aw, cheer up! it's 202.... oh fuck, never mind
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