I'm not one to ask for advice but I'm genuinely curious to hear what you NiggerFaggots would do. Basically my exgf left me when she was pregnant with our son and never spoke to me until recently. By now he's 18 months old. I seen him and my ex at Xmas time and my son never knew who I was and my exgf was being a bitch to me and never even got me anything for Xmas. The point is, it didn't feel like a real family, but whenever I say this everybody tells me I'm wrong and that it's still a real family. To me it's not though and it was a depressing situation to put myself in. I had to sit around and see the family I could have had. I got to see my son who didn't even know who I was. I had to be around my ex who treated me like shit and didn't even get me an Xmas present. That's not family. I'm being told I can see my son once a week which isn't enough to be a real dad. Basically it has come down to me realizing that I'll never be able to have a real family and therefore will never be satisfied with life and wish to kill myself as a result of this. I know for a fact that I'll never be able to have a real family and nor will my son.