For the longest time, I thought everything was random, and life was a zero sum game. Didn't care, didn't pay attention. Everything was luck, or coincidence, or whatever else you wanna attribute it to. I'd long had a hunch that, after looking back on my life, it almost seem scripted in the way it'd played out, but again I just wrote it off.

But then 10 years ago, my wife and I were driving from San Diego to Portland Oregon. Before the trip, her family had given us $165 dollars as a present for our trip. It was all the cash they currently had on them. It was midnight, and we pulled off into a rest stop in Shasta to sleep because we were both too exhausted to continue and hadn't sprung for a hotel room when we'd had a chance. We forgot to remove my phone (our GPS for the trip) from the charger. After a 3 hour nap, we decided to continue. The car started with a bit of difficulty, but we started on our way. As soon as I hit the highway, we heard a loud pop, and all the electronics in the car die. The transmission shifted me back to first, and I instantly swung to the side of the road. It was pitch black. No cars. Pouring rain in sheets so thick that even with high beams it was hard to see. Snow was forecasted for that morning in the Shasta area. I was scared out of my mind.

So I said a small prayer. "Jesus, please help us through this." I tried the car again. It started. A tiny voice in the back of my mind said "Turn off all the electrical stuff." I have no idea WHY i heard that. It wasn't the usual internal voice I have. But I did it. Radio, heater, unplugged phone, everything I could turn off, I did. I got back on the highway. The car performed. it got us through. Better than that, it kept driving for several hundred more miles until we got to Eugene, and something that resembled a trustworthy auto shop. As I pulled into the driveway for the Sears Auto Center, the car died. it completely shut down and would not turn over. It had taken us EXACTLY where we needed to go. We waiting for an hour while they checked it over. The battery had failed. A new one would be $165 dollars, no tax since Oregon is sales tax free. The rest of the trip went absolutely perfect: we found an apartment in our first go. My first job interview I got a job that paid amazing and had benefits, and was willing to wait the 6 weeks for us to move up. The trip back was perfect.

Call that what you want, but I KNOW Jesus watched us. I KNOW he helped us. There's too much that happened that day, and that week, that I can't say it was all random chance. There's simply no way.

Where is God today? Why isn't he as active as he was in the past. He doesn't have to do anything special for me. Just repeat some of the things he did back then.

That was a serious reply. If you want my UNDYING faith I want it to do that. You need a dusty book and I need something of such strangeness that there is no way to refute it.