Same background, same mentality as you. It's like, the knight doesn't go and slay the dragon then expect to live off the townsfolk for the rest of his life. He is supposed to melt back into society. I know, I know what it is like to be waken in the middle of the night with visions of faces I never bothered to take a good look at, patrol the house for no reason, braced the door because I just sleep better... but I don't whine about it. SUCK IT UP!